Entering The Force-Field

Midlife Crisis

Midlife crisis is an elemental paradigm shift in one’s life that erupts while the person is seemingly, completely unprepared.

It usually comes in life when one finally reached a certain peak of adult development, establishing a family, profession, secure existence, inching, turning towards retirement age.

Today interestingly such paradigm shift appears in earlier age groups, sometimes affecting even teenagers as everything is hastening, being condensed in our generation.

Usually the disturbing inner sensation is a combination of emptiness, depression arising from within one’s present state, fearing the limitations of one’s physical life, death, fearing facing corporeal life’s inherent futility.

At the same time our instinctive survival reflex springs into action, explosive, twisted, excessive new desires awaken in relation to food, sex, wealth, power or knowledge, trying to divert one’s attention from that emptiness, depression and fear, preventing one to contemplate real questions about the meaning of life.

Most people choose to grab the “second chances” for a new life offered by the new pleasures, desires appearing with elemental force like a hurricane. Usually they tear the person away from everyday life, even from family, profession, country as one desperately tries discovering new tastes, new vitality, stubbornly trying to turn back the wheels of time.

Of course those wheels are unstoppable and sooner than later people realize that no new tastes or pleasures can stop the inevitable decay, or sweep under the carpet the disturbing questions about the true meaning of our human life.

Despite of this futility the same changes, desperate chase for escape can trick people again and again, driving them through multiple vicious cycles endlessly.

So is there no true escape, salvation from these terrible ups and downs?

Escaping Towards The Meaning Of Life

There is, but for that one needs to take seriously the repeatedly appearing, increasingly insolent questions about the meaning of life. Only those who grab onto this question with their teeth, starting a search for true answers can find the antidote, remedy for “midlife crisis” which is tearing their lives into pieces.

In fact “midlife crisis” which is becoming an epidemic in our generation is an inevitable inner pressure appearing in order to turn people toward this “meaning”, helping them to become new “creatures” converting their hidden “Human” potential into reality.

Those people who take this search seriously and don’t let themselves to be bribed – led astray by different teaching, methods offering only superficial, psychological support – sooner or later find themselves in a unique environment, with a unique, practical method.

There they learn that our true Human meaning is to reach a very different, quantitatively much higher consciousness and perception of reality, through which we can start sensing an infinite and eternal existence that is above time, space or motion, beyond physical life and death.

But they also learn that in order to reach that perfect existence, they need to subjugate themselves to others, mutually becoming selfless, altruistic supporters, servants of one another.

People escaping the intolerable tortures of “midlife crisis” hastily agree to the conditions looking at the prospective reward and the lowliness of their present state, which makes their calculation very straight forward.

The “Years Of Satiation”

And as soon as they integrate into this new environment and they start acting according to the method, artificially play acting mutual support, mutual service of one another, showcasing as if the others were more important for them than their own state, they immediately start feeling positive effects.

They immediately start sensing new confidence, a sense of security, long forgotten self-importance, healthy pride as a result of feeling the support, warmth of this new environment. The more they integrate, taking on themselves personal roles, commitment toward the others, the stronger the positive sensation.

They develop a special, unprecedented double perception, starting to see themselves as if through an “out of body experience” in relation to their previous, “normal life”.

They still participate in their lives as before, existing within their families, workplaces, in the general society, performing, fulfilling all their roles commitments as before. They even sense the same emptiness, depression as others, they sense the temptations from the surge of new, twisted, distorted, freak desires other people feel through “midlife crisis”.

But at the same time they sense themselves as “Odysseus”, tied to the mast of the common boat with multiple ropes (all the commitments one took for the sake of the mutual environment), ears plugged with lead (the collective importance, covenant they built among themselves towards their true, Human meaning of life).

Thus the noises, siren songs of midlife crisis, general life, tearing apart the hearts of normal people only come as muffled noises, faint disturbances they can easily ignore.

Thus the emptiness, depression, the attraction of sex, food, money, power and knowledge don’t disappear, but by escaping onto the common boat, into the mutual ark they can rise above the waves of those negative or positive disturbances. For a while they feel joyful, truly blessed by this newly found security, sage haven.

The Time For A Real Commitment

But their initial happiness, newly found confidence starts waning when they realize that so far they simply “changed a cow for a donkey”. They simply found a new way of satisfying their inherently egoistic, selfish desires.

All they have done so far was changing corporeal pleasures to seemingly spiritual ones, using mutual support, artificially serving one another for a new type of self-fulfilment, self-serving security. They simply run from pain towards pleasure following the inherent “pleasure/pain principle”

They still haven’t caught the real “thief” torturing them, the “criminal” that caused their sufferings in the first place, the robber stealing the real purpose of Human life for its own profit.

Instead they have been running together with the cunning thief, with their own egoistic nature that deceived them shouting “let’s catch the thief” while stealing everything in open daylight.

In order to truly corner and then catch the “thief”, exposing and then correcting the inherently selfish, egoistic and hateful human nature, the main condition of the mutual circle – selfless, altruistic and unconditional service of others through complete self-annulment – has to be implemented in real.

Thus the superficial game – generating the warm, friendly, mutual atmosphere that offered them a temporary escape from “midlife crisis” – need to become real and sharp without excuses.

They need to make a fateful decision of truly burning all the bridges behind, completely committing themselves to total self-annulment, only existing, acting for the sake of others.

Inner Fight For Survival

This new decision, true commitment finally draws the “thief” out of the “murky crowd”, turning it sharply against their mutual efforts. Only when their intention, commitment becomes true, and constantly intensified through their mutual covenant does the inherently selfish, egoistic and hateful nature starts fighting for its life.

Then it comes out with its whole spectrum of tricks and weapons trying to bribe, mislead them on one side while threatening, terrorizing them on the other side.

Their mutual covenant, the mutually generated importance of entering that new paradigm of selfless, altruistic existence has to be extremely strong in order to withstand the terrifying existential fight of their selfish ego.

This is a new inner war, a new duality, “out of body experience”, incomparable to their previous sensations. This is a real existential struggle within the person, causing birthing pangs as the selfless, altruistic “Human” embryo tries to be born from within an inherently selfish, egoistic material.

Reaching The Point Of Birth

This unprecedented birth process can’t unfold without a “mother’s womb” where that initially small inspiration of finding one’s Human purpose, inspiration for a real existence can develop. The members of the mutual circle build this womb for one another through their mutual efforts, covenant.

This “womb building” goes through constant scrutinies, purification, ups and downs, each time re-examining what and why they are doing, re-asserting their commitment toward their common goal and towards their mutual covenant.

The more realistically they are capable of selflessly, altruistically supporting one another, the stronger the womb becomes and the more alive their mutual aspiration towards that real Human existence gets. The new embryo is not an individual one, but the bundled collecting of their individual aspirations into one.

At the end they can reach an unprecedented, fully committed, irreversible decision for a breakthrough. They reach an elemental yearning towards the prospective, albeit still unknown new paradigm: the new, selfless, altruistic and Human existence disconnected from their selfish ego.

At that faithful point, mutually deciding to jump into the new paradigm unconditionally, with closed eyes even their selfish ego is left with no other choice but to agree to this breakthrough. It is a simple “survival reflex” agreement from its part, as the ego finally understands that only by serving this transformation, grudgingly allowing the truly selfless, altruistic existence to unfold can it hope for any morsels of vitality, drops of light, energy it can survive on.

This is the start of the real gestation, the start of a truly unprecedented development towards that new, Human life in the actively sustained, strengthened mutual womb.

This unique, collective Human embryo is not passive in the womb as it constantly needs to sustain that selfless, altruistic balance over the reawakening egoistic tendencies. Thus it is more fitting to imagine the state as a twin pregnancy, the two fundamentally different siblings constantly fighting, struggling with one another.

The one that remains connected to the original selfish, egoistic nature is pulling backwards, towards itself, towards an instinctive, animate life, trying to grab, exploit any pleasures that arrive from the new paradigm. The other twin, connected to the scrutinized, purified mutual aspiration is constantly pushing forward towards the selfless, altruistic Human existence, pushing away any selfish rewards, pleasures for itself, simply trying to adhere to the new life.

Whichever twin comes out on top, dominates over the other depends on the state of the womb, which in turn depends only on the mutual work, committed effort the members in the mutual circle put in.

But their new consciousness, perception of reality actually unfolds in between the “two twins” in the womb, collecting, analyzing the impressions, emotions gained within the contrasts on between the two extreme inclinations.